I Forget. I Remember. The Cycles of Alzheimer's

Is this how it happens? This morning, for whatever reason, I began to wonder where I was born. There it was. I had no idea. I knew it was in New Jersey, but couldn't find where in my mind. Several cities popped up as possibilities, but I knew they weren't right. When I finally remembered I wasn't sure if this was really the town. 

Several days ago, I had a sudden memory of a good friend calling at dinnertime and I said I'd call her back as soon as we finished. It was like a distant memory so I asked my husband. He said that, yes, that was a couple of weeks ago. I felt terrible and called her at once. Thankfully she is a good friend and is learning to roll with it. 

If you read up about Alzheimer's, it states that if you eventually remember, you don't have Alzheimer's. Yay!! Just messin' here. Of course I have Alzheimer's. What's wrong with those people who write such nonsense. Yes, we remember one day and forget the next Just because we remember now and then does not proclaim us cured. Now wouldn't that be nice? 

Feeling antsy and anxious lately. I'm not sleeping well, to be expected, but I'm also bored even thought I am too busy to even begin to accomplish what I set out to do each day. I guess I can only describe it as waiting for the other shoe to fall. Life has, for most of us, been a series of challenges and trials to overcome and learn from. I suppose smooth sailing makes me a bit nervous. I just sense that another challenge awaits. If we are not challenged, however, I believe that it means our purpose has been fulfilled and there's nothing left to learn. I'm sure that's not the case. So, I wait for that shoe and I'm okay with that.

I sign up for class after class online. Enthusiastic and I begin plowing through with books, papers, and note taking. Joyful. Then, after a few days in, I'm off in a totally different direction and don't look back. This leaves me unfulfilled and feeling nervous and flighty. I think I get frustrated at my inability to retain what I'm reading or learning. 

I'm reading a book now that I know I've read before, but I remember nothing. We're watching a TV series that we've watched before, but I remember nothing. Getting frustrating.

On a brighter side:

So, did I mention that I've gotten into woodcarving lately? I have no idea where that came from except that it is something that I've never done, so.......